Dec. 15

Just a few of my Santas, for a bit of festive fun.

Soooo, it's been a few days. I was off this weekend, and today is my off day. Nothing major or urgent to do today so I'm just kinda puttering around, doing whatever sparks my interest. Cleaned up the house a bit after the boys left for school. Finishing up the laundry I didn't get to yesterday. Making oatmeal raisin cookies (ick!) for hubby. Wrapped a couple more gifts that had arrived, things I'd ordered online. And now figured it was an ideal time to do some blogging...no one here to bother me.

We have a Wind Chill Advisory until noon today. It was originally until 6pm so I guess it's a good sign that they've shortened it. Actual temp right now is 15 degrees, but the wind chill temp is -1 degree. It was -19 when the boys left for school this morning. I've been outside twice today...to put some mail in the mailbox, and later to pick up the newly delivered mail. Let me just say BRRR!

We didn't even concern ourselves with putting lights up this weekend. (I think I mentioned it my last entry?) It did indeed get over 40 degrees, but it was rainy and windy. I don't think hubby is overly holiday spirited this year either. Why is that? Is everyone lacking this year?? Cuz I still don't feel it.

I'm trying to decide just how much...and what...to bake for Christmas goodies. Do I want to just make a couple of the usuals for here at home? Do I want to dive into a big project and make a gift of baked goodies for family members and co-workers? Well, I *want* to do the big baking thing but realistically will I get it done? Or will it end up being a Put Too Much Pressure On Myself thing that ends up bringing me down in the end? Hmm, must consider this more after I'm done blogging.

I'm also trying to decide what to do about my old MySpace blog. I'd been thinking for a while that I'll just copy/paste it and print it out so I can tuck it away with other artifacts of my life. It's just sitting over there, the main reason I haven't deleted my MySpace account. This morning I actually started working on this project but found it's not going to be as easy as I thought. I have to copy/paste in sections, redo the bold and italics and spacing, etc. And then I found that I wasn't even done with the first month and the document was already something like eleven pages long. What's it going to be with the full eight months I have there??

I dumped that project out of frustration. What to do? What to do?? Now that I've done some other things, I'm back to thinking about it, thinking I might try again. I'd also been thinking of printing out this blog each month. Something I should have started and kept up on from the beginning I guess. *sigh* What I should do is just keep a normal freakin' journal but for some reason I just can't. I've tried many many times over the years. Maybe I should seriously revisit that idea.

My online fascination days are coming to an end, I think. I don't understand the thrill of MySpace and Facebook. Why do people keep their profiles private? If you're just keeping it for people you already know, why not just email or call them? Why do people keep such accounts if they only check them maybe once every couple months?

At first I thought Facebook looked like it could be fun, but this year I finally admitted to myself that I have no intention of reconnecting with anyone from my school days. Those were the worst days of my life. Even if twenty people from school found me thru Facebook (or MySpace) and were all 'excited' to catch up, my opinion would be 'screw you.' You all made my life hell back then, why are you interested in me now? To double check that you continue to be better than me? I used to be interested, curious about what classmates were doing, where they ended up. This year I decided I don't care anymore.

I used to have several websites/messageboards I would check daily and hang out at. That had dwindled down to one, and I've just recently finally given that one up too. It's gotten to the point over there that there are no conversations anymore. If anyone does post it's a drive-by thing, using the fewest amount of words possible. The one person who does still make an effort over there, I can talk to in email so that's what I decided to do. I've logged out of that place and deleted my bookmark.

Actually there is still one site I lurk at, but only because I'm waiting to see the outcome of someone's situation...then I'll be done there too. That Twilight board I mentioned not so long ago turned out to be something I'm not interested in, just like I feared.

Yahoo, MSN chat, ICQ...all used to be so much fun. So many hours spent chatting with so many people. That's all gone too. I can turn on all my chat programs, leave them on all day, and never get a message. *sigh*

It's taken me ten years, and some huge distractions along the way, but I think I'm finally getting around to what I got a computer for in the first place. I want to do photo work, make things, organize things, do family tree stuff...and write.

Maybe 2009 will be a year of actual writing effort. How awesome would that be??